Masih jelas sekali kenangan dulu, kelas 5 SD, saya pernah menampar seorang teman lelaki, karena dia bercanda dengan cara menghalang2i jalan saya ketika hendak pulang ke rumah. Singkatnya, dari dulu saya memang agak sensitif dengan lelaki2 sampah yang suka genit ke cewek-cewek, lelaki yang tidak menghargai dan menghormati wanita sedikitpun. Hingga saya beranjak dewasa, saya sangat sensitif dan marah jika mendengar kasus wanita dibunuh, dianiaya, dilecehkan, atau diselingkuhi. Bagi saya, lelaki sampah macam ini tidak layak untuk menginjak dunia yang dari maha Pencipta saja, sudah diperintahkan untuk memuliakan, meghargai dan menghormati kaum hawa, terbukti dari dijaminnya surga untuk 4 wanita (Khadijah, Fatimah, Asiah, Maryam). Mari mempersempit pembahasan ini dengan contoh kecil saja. Beberapa hari yang lalu saya mem post tentang suatu hal berbau against seseorang yang saya tahu betul kerjaannya hanyalah merayu wanita, seolah dimana dia berpijak disitu dilemparkannya rayuan2

Tersenyumlah karena Dia masih mengasihani rindu- rindu yang terpendam pada tiap hati manusia yang bertingkah seolah tidak. Tapi.. 5 detik saja kataNya lalu ku iyakan, kau iyakan, maka terjadilah cukup kataNya, "sudah kan? jangan kau bawa pulang, katamu cintamu hanya untukNya saja" "iya" kataku, meski tau tak mau. meski mampuku sebatas ragu. tapi selalu ku ingat bahwa Dia tak boleh ada duanya, maka aku mengangguk demi belajar menjadi ikhlas, itulah penguatku, serta dengan bantuanmu tentunya, yang kalau kau termakan rayuan semu sedikit saja, maka binasalah. sayangnya rindu bukan hanya milik satu orang saja, semua orang berhak memilikinya. dan payahnya, semua orang punya hak yang sama, merindukan satu orang dengan nama yang sama. lantas bagaimana? jawabannya, ya tak apa, Dia tahu kapasitasmu terbatas, dan tak kau miliki kemampuan membaca hati dan pikiran orang, Dia paham kalau kau tak tahan uji, dan lebih dari mengerti betapa untuk mencoba menghapu

As a person who has 'not really good past' with someone who said he loves me but the truth is like a tragedy instead of teenager's sweet romance, I've experienced met someone who said he'd like to kill himself just to spend time with me, the person who send me bullshit poems but can shoot me in the right time so those trash can easily persuade a transition shs to college yet vulnerable girl like me to give my heart too. The shuck who believes he's the most handsome boy in this world so it gives him a right to collect his dump jar of hearts. Meh. H e shot me in front of my friends and those rumors spread like the wind. I started to live my life as a normal junior in my faculty with him until I heard that he has approached one of my friend s , and shortly, I knew that he has dozens of secret girls and more and more. I t ’s very heartbreaking at the first time but now, hah so nasty . like .. who do you think u are? But, it's not the prominent m

people are vary, but we can always learn something from someone. forcing people to be like what we want them to be is like stuffed them with fish when they got allergic on it. just because we put their necessity above ours, it doesn't mean they will do the same. mind's pattern are made by the value that they got from the circumstances. Some people treat you well because they believe that doing something nice are more beneficial than hurting someone, they got the experience on it or else they watch the people around them did it as well. While the other one who used to put their ego up above anything, will never have any idea to lower their selfish way, and keep upholding their necessity above the others. Human is perfect, God is really good. But behavior make it really complicated.  everyone want to be happy, but sometimes forget that the others begging for it too. it's almost impossible to wish everyone will be kind to us, just because we never hurt them, resp

untuk mama, papa, dan semua orang-orang yang saya sayangi dan menyayangi saya, semoga sehat selalu:)

My 2 am The heavy rain just too okay to remember something, or maybe someone? It’s like thousand memories that used to be faded back again. Rain drops to the ground create bittersweet harmony that forced to play in human’s brain. Rain targeted a loss control one, who wakeup at 2 am and missing somebody. It continously attack people consciousness to make people accidently grab their handphone and take uncontrolled action.                 Some peple said loving people is like a cherry pie, the others believe missing someone is like feel the honeydew. For me personally, missing somehow relate with waiting. There’s always waiting while missing someone. Majority of people hate gambling. The one who gambling is people who willing to sacrifice themselves. Talking about waiting, the possibility just about whether the person that we waiting for will come back or not. That’s gambling                 It’s 2 am and I cannot even sleep, my eyes refuse to close..... *to be continue